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i dont know how im supposed to go on everyday with the memories of what you did to me. i dont know how many more quotes and lyrics i can confide in. how many more silent paragraphs must i write to you until you understand?
i want to undo everything that happened between us. i know i hurt you. i didn't know how to act. i didn't see how badly you were hurting me until now. i would've treated you better knowing what i know now.
am i supposed to forget about this all and move on? you apologized but i still feel as if you've left me here to bleed out silently. can you apologize again? can you fix what you did?
i just want someone to tell me it will be okay. i want clarity to my fears and thoughts so that maybe i can learn to love you purely once more. i want an outlet for my anger because i know you do not deserve it. i never want to feel the way i did waking up to your absence ever again. i never want to beg for you to speak to me again. i just wanted to love you.
im so lost. how am i supposed to do this every day.