unfair
life is unfair. i’ve said it before and i’ve believed it. i’ve stood here so unbothered, but now this realization threatens to drag me down. and i still fight, i've already lost but i'm not going down without a fight. watch me weaken, watch me lose. watch me lose that battle i tried so hard to defend. i know i can't do it, i’ve tried so hard but i can't win, i can’t be the things i aspire to be, i can’t do it. i watch from my hopeless struggle as they do it. as they do everything i failed to do. it’s a sickening jealousy i embrace, good for them. it’s not like i tried. it’s not like i would’ve given anything to be you. but it’s fine, i’m fine. i’m done trying, i’m done failing, i’m done fighting. the odds were never in my favor anyways.