silence
i can never get my point across by staying silent.
but whenever i open my mouth im betrayed by my own voice.
theres so much i want to say but i just cant.
even my writing comes out in rambling incomprehensible stupid fucking sentences.
my own words are overwhelming and i can’t face reality.
i want to coat it in metaphors and make something beautiful but i just can’t
cause it doesnt matter and i dont matter and whats the point of any of this
i cant talk about my problems and i cant write about them and i cant do anything worthwhile
and it doesnt matter to you and i dont want it to matter to them because its all stupid and its my problems and nobody elses so why would i even bring it up
im so tired of this