how do i get into making music?
its been hard recently
im struggling to think up metaphors that might make my situation better
i really wish i had an outlet for these things
someone i could talk to, someone who would listen and understand what im saying
i dont know
it's all been so fine, ive been living.
but its getting to me, all of it
physically and mentally i can feel all the tears ive been holding back
i need to cry or scream or do anything that would help me
im so scared
havent i said that enough?
i need to accept that im scared. that im so. so. so. so scared
and not of failure like they usually claim,
im scared to exist
and now ill tie this letter up with a pretty bow, the one that says im so strong. the one that says i can do it. the one that is so positive it grabs your face and contorts it into a smile.
thats fine, ill walk away with nothing (again)