grief
it feels so weird grieving something that isn't gone. grieving the idea of a reality where we hadn't met. where i never had to take your pain as my own.
the mutual pact we sealed in blood to bind our pain is haunting me. everyday i resent the things you said to me. you took the love i showed you as an invitation to give me scars that matched your own.
i reflected you to protect my heart.
you ruined me.
will you listen to me?
will anything repair the damage you did?
i don't know
i'm not sure i'll ever know
i'm not sure you'll ever truly be gone
i hope you never are
i hope you grieve for me